Not Because We Can... But Because There is Nothing Else to do.

Do you ever feel so undeserving of something, that every time you experience it you weep? Something so great, so powerful, and you stand before it naked? Ashamed? Scared?

You can see all of your flaws laid out before you, each and every one, "significant" or not, and so can it. There is no hiding, there is no running. At times you wish that it would flee! You wish in your insanity that you could be rid of the burden of greatness before you, and move back to the lies that you existed in previously in comfort.

And then, when you are ever more in a state of undeserving, that thing, that entity... thanks you.

That entity enters into your current situation, and claims it as both of your current situations. That entity says that you are in this together. That entity smiles.

You realize that you are all that you are, good and bad, and there is nothing else you can be at that moment.

All that is left is to be perfect and blameless.

Let us do it.

Courage or Ignorance.

When fear grips us, it is always better to try, even if we may fail, then to cowardly turn away.

(of course, this is referring to all of those black and white moments in life... haha).

I believe that to be true. I believe that we are the first line of defense against our dreams coming true. I believe that it is silly and foolish to sit in mediocrity and comfort when outside of our comfort zone, and within our fear lies the true key to accomplishment and achievement.

So yes. When fear grips us, it is always better to try, even if we may fail, then to cowardly turn away.

Imagine if someone were holding a gun to your beloved (in whatever form that takes for you), and you had the opportunity to stop the bullet with your arm. You know full well the damage that could be inflicted upon you by the bullet. It is better to run into your fears, in the way of the bullet to save your beloved. That is called courage.

But imagine that you had no understanding of a gun, imagine if you had no concept of the damage possible from a bullet tearing into your flesh. Then, walking in front of that bullet would not be courageous, nor would it be the better thing to do by any convincing manor. Walking in front of the bullet would be like a dog walking in front of a moving car, it would be ignorance and foolishness. That also would not be engaging fear, there would likely be no fear held if you had no understanding of the consequences.

So there are two sides to the coin... courage, which benefits and ignorance, which has no place in the world.

My ultimate question is this: which way do we engage love? Through courage or ignorance?

-Ben